Stoked on the Future!

11.1.2012 Ubud



Although I love Bali, I’m super stoked on going back home. I have so much cool stuff waiting for me back home!!!

Only after three days when returning home, I will be attending Matkamessut (a travel expo), which Rantapallo is kind enough to grant us bloggers tickets to :) I’m super keen on seeing what the conference has to offer and I will be sure for keeping my eyes open for ticket discounts for my next travels ;) It will also be a great opportunity for looking for sponsors for my Tall Ship Races –trip !

I also need to start planning something I like to refer as to the W.E.P – what it is, you will find out when the time is right. ;)

Also i’m pretty stoked on going back to school... :D Maths and accounting..!.wow I am a nerd. Nah but really, I had a really good semester studying wise, and the only three grades I’ve gotten so far where 5’s !!! (From subjects I DID NOT expect myself to be getting tp marks from!) I’m constantly checking our school’s netportal to see whether the teachers would be bored enough on their vacation to fill in our grades ;) I have a strong feeling this will the best report card I’ve ever got... I know I did pretty fuckign well on my exams and I’m excited on getting the results back (and seeing how many more 5’s I got :D) :) AND this semester I will make damn sure that i’ll concentrate 150% on Spanish porque quiero hablar español perfectamente un día..! ALSO pretty keen on taking the digital photography course and learning more about photography (:

I’m also excited because two days ago when we were driving to Ubud on the scooter with Milka and I was just sitting back, listening to my iPod hungover, I had these realizations:

1)      I  Started thinking about whether I should do marketing as my major. During the fall semester when I was thinking of what to study as my major I knew that I didn’t want it to be

a) Economics – because although it is useful and usually pretty logical, the graphs are a total mind fuck most of the time and usually just requires for you to learn them by heart. AND four years with Michale Keaney would just be too painful with his bad bad bad jokes : D
b) Marketing – because Kotler (the author) is a fuckign lunatic who writes books that are ACTUALLY over 1000 pages long and the size of big laptops... Tooooo much man..

...BUT
when I came to Bali I started rethinking the issue. Marketing started to sound appealing as I started realizing the opportunities that marketing would provide. I could basically work anywhere.

For example:
Paolo, the 46-year-old Brazilian guy from Balangan Beach owns his own ”surf village” in an island somewhere in Indonesia and I asked jokingly whether I could come work for him ”yeah. You could do the marketing”. Ding ding ding, jackpot!

I also got inspired by Jean, Jonas’ French friend (who’s friend’s villa we stayed at) who has been now living in Bali for a year. He’s a fucking lucky guy because at ony 25 he got hired as the director of Ticket to the Moon in Bali and is doing e.g. the marketing for the company. So basically he is living in Bali and has a cool job of selling freakin’ hammocks :D

So yeah.. with marketing comes a lot of options and different livestyles to choose from.

2)      What I also realized, was that I’m not going to give up on Out of Control Productions, mine and a couple friends’ company/organization we created, registered and threw a succesful Halloween Party with. We had some internal problems that made me seriously doubt whether I wanted to continue to work in OOCP and when leaving to Bali I just answered ”I don’t know” when I was being asked whether I was still in after a month of avoiding everything that had to do with OOCP. I told I’d figure things out in Bali. But after staying in Bali for three weeks I still hadn’t gotten an epiphany about what to do with the issue. I just wished I wouldn’t have to choose between working-with-wonderful,-passionate-people-who-are-amazing-at-what-they-do-but-with-whom-you’d-probably-clash-big-time-with-at-times to giving up on something I was part of creating and loved doing.

I was sitting at the back of the scooter with my headphones when I realized there was no way I was going to quit doing something I am good at. Never ever have I been as passionate as in those two manic weeks when we pulled off the sickest Halloween Party with Demi and Janika. Never ever have I been so driven and focused. 12 hour days have not seemed like work with such a good and FUN team. Although we might have our  differences its not worth giving up on something that could fourish from a tiny seed into a beautiful flower. Not forgetting about friendship.

I’m super excited in going back as when I asked the girls and Jin (when combining the StartUp Challenge with OOCP Jin, the graphic and computer wizard joined forces with us) to fill me in on what was happening nowaday in OOCP (as I had been succesfully avoiding our FB-Admin page for two months) Demi told we are doing collab with Trombi Ry, the student organization, and throwing parties for them...! Not to mention all the other school parties and what not :) I also have a couple ideas on parties and I can’t wait to see my girls again and meet Jin finally, so that we can start working on our company’s future :)

So yeah, Pretty fucking stoked on going back home. Not to mention that Sean who has left Australia behind to make his RTW-trip is heading to Helsinki on the 26th aka AUSSIE DAY!!!!

Rant

The thing about traveling that makes it sometimes too suffocating is that you can't escape it. When you feel like things are a bit too much at the moment, there's no place you can unwind at. When you crave a moment of alone time, there's no where you can possibly get that. Usually the place to do that is your home, and when you are traveling you call your hostel your home. You can go to your empty dorm room but you're never still quite alone. You might be by yourself but there's still the presence of people that never leaves the room or where ever you are at.

Man. I do sound like i'm homesick, but really, i'm not. Things just seem so hectic at the moment and i'm having all these epiphanies about myself and life that it feels like a moment of golden alone time wouldn't hurt.

Currently i'm sitting in the car with Laura in the back with me and Dom and Melanie in the front. We are driving somewhere and everyone is quiet. Seems like there's nothing left to say. Yesterday we played Never Have I Ever and everyone just looked at each other "What DON'T I know about you?". When you travel with someone for such a long time, it sometimes kind of hurts how much you give away of yourself. Like there's nothing left to share. Mystique gone long time ago.

Then again I love it how these girls know me better than anyone else. I think they know me better than most of my closest people back home. I love it how we've been through everything together. Kind of sucks going back home cause you know no one will never complitely understand how its like. Although you might've read my blog and I will tell you everything in full detail, there's no way you'll ever get how it really is, cause you weren't here with us.

Fuck I love backpacker life.

We had the same conversation with Melanie for the second time yesterday. How you realize when you go to cities, that everything is really just so fake. It's like an illusion. You look at the people hurrying past you with their fancy shoes and coffee mugs in a hurry, and just think "why?". In small beach towns the atmosphere and the way of life is just so different. No one wears make up and everyone just dresses up just for the fact of wearing clothes. Its so much more real. People are who they are and they aren't trying to keep up an image with expensive clothes. In cities its all about shielding yourself and creating an image you want yourself to be viewed upon.

But yeah, i know. When I get back home I know I will go back to my old ways: accessorizing and applying make up cause at the end of the day who doesn't like it? I just wish I could sometimes escape it and that life wouldn't always just be about apperance and material. Because in the end, like Dom said, "You can't take wealth with you when you die, you can't take material objects, in fact you take nothing". I hope I'll live my life according to this fact and make the most of it. Enjoy myself. Collect experiences and live my dreams. So that when its time to go, I know I live it to the max.

Peace out.
Ps. wow. Train of thought. Wasn't even going to write a rant about all this. Feel so much better though.  I can go back to socializing now that I have this mental block and whirlwind of thoughts out of my head. :)

Life

Had a DNM with Dom again. About Life and Stuff.

He read me a couple of deep journal entries back from 2009 when he was in uni. I shared the only English one I could find which wasn't only about us three getting drunk together.

I feel like Life is unraveling itself to me at the moment.
Ian used to tell me he feels like something big is going to happen, that Life is going to change. Back then I didn't understand what he was talking about, but now I do.
Life is happening. It's unravelign itself to me little by little. I feel like i'm on the verge of discovering something huge about Life but I just don't know what.

I'm starting to understand Life more and more little by little. I don't know how or what I'm understanding, but I just am. It's happening subconciously. They aren't like thought thoughts you can put into words but more like feelings and instincts almost.

Oh man. I really can't seem to put my thoughts into words at the moment.
Just like Dom wrote in his journal "Too many thoughts. FML".

Easy Livin' @ Airlie Beach

I can't go back to my life at Finland anymore. There's no way I want to or can live there anymore. Talvet on vain ihan liian pitkiä, pimeita ja masentavia. En mä halua elää vain kesäisin.
Laura just kysy ett "What do you do in Finland during the winter?" 
"That just it. Nothing. We just sit inside and wait for summer."

Toinen juttu on se, että mä en oikeesti kestä mun elämän sisältöö Suomessa. Ei oo siistii se, että kavereiden kaa ei tee mitään muuta ku käy bareissa ja vetää perseet. Ja se perseiden vetäminen - tääl Airlie Beachis on pari ihanaa suomalaista tyttöö, joihin tutustuttiin Cairnsis: Stela ja Pamela.  Niitten tavast dokaa huokuu se suomalaisuus: juodaan siks, ett juodaan kännit. There's something very wrong with the Finnish (drinking) culture. (Love you still, girls!)

The Lagoon

En oo omasta mielestäni kertaakaan täällä ollessani dokannu siks, ett jeee nyt vdu pää täyteen - Oon itse asiassa vaan nauttinu näiden ihmisten seurasta, mun olosta ja hyvästä keskustelusta. Alkoholi on vain toissijainen asia siinä sivussa. Alkoholia nautitaan; you don't chug it.

me n Cecilia @ the lagoon

Toki onhan täälläkin tultu shot gun'attua ja juotu merirosvomaisesti rommia, mutta koskaan ei kännin vetäminen ole ollut se pääasia, toisin kuin Suomessa.

Oho, tulipa pitkä rant. Mun piti vain kirjottaa pari rivii siitä, kuinka en aio matkani jälkeen kuin kävästä Suomessa tekemässä töitä ja muuttamassa kamani sinne minne lie yliopistoon nyt päätänkään hakea ja johon pääsen sisään.

Ian ("Fucking OK") n me

Tääl Airlie Beachis on aika easy livin'. Ei olla tehty oikein muuta kuin oltu laguunilla ja chillattu. Sunnuntaina kun saavuttiin nähtiin Ian ja Jared :) Maanantaina pelattiin Fuck You'ta Cairnsis tutustumiemme ihmistenkaa (Cecilia, Stella, Pamela, Eddie, Thomas) ja sen jälkee vähän yögyläilyy. Kuulin jonkun joskus sanovan pari viikkoa sitten, how you end up just travelling and meeting the same people you met two cities before. Esim. Magnetic Islandsil Melanie törmäs hollantilaisiin poikiin joittenkaa oli ollu travellaa ja Fullmoon Partys törmättiin kans Mission Beach'laisiin: Natalia ja JJ-Pack (Julia&Julia). Yep. Everyone seems to be doing all the same stuff... Mut sellasta se on, kiitos Lonely Planet (meil ei onneks oo sitä).

Laura & Hungry-Jared

Eilen oltiin aika lameja Laurankaa, ja vaikka kuinka luvattiin Cecilialle, Stellalle ja Pamsulle, että tultas niiten hostellille alottelemaan, niin jäätiin vaan meijän hostellille makoilemaan. Oltiin tehty stir fry'ta... ihan sairaan hyvää (lol Laura ei osannu keittää riisii :D toinen läppä juttu: Laura ei tienny kuinka kuoria keitetty muna :D:D:D love ya couz!)! Sen jälkeen iski väsy ja jäätiin vaa makoilemaan ja puhumaan miehistä. Sit Dennis, yks saksalainen lainas meille läppäriinsä ja me katottiin An American Crime... IHAN SAIRAS LEFFA :( Lopetin kattomisen kesken, koska ei vaan pystyny ! Vaihettiin onneks vähän kevyeempään katsottavaan ja katotiin Jersey Shorea jakso ;) OU YEAH.

Team Finland: mä, stella, taina ja pamsu

Törmättiin tänään Nataliaan taas hahaha :D Olenkin tänään puhunut neljää kieltä! Suomee Stellankaa, pari lausetta Ruotsii Ceciliankaa, Puolaa Nataliankaa ja Enkkuu nyt yleensä. Tänään myös vaihettiin hostellia $8 halvempaan. Istun para aikaa yleisel balconyl with a sea view.. ;) Buukkasin myös meijän whitsunday sailingsin. Tai siis meil oli open date, nii ilmotin niille vaan, että me lähetään seilaamaan tiistaina. hohhoh, mitäköhän me keksitään tääl Airlie Beachis siihen asti.. There's not much to do than lay at the lagoon or drink some beers.. Huomattiin kyl ett meil on sellanen $3 didgeridoo lesson -voucher, niin otetaan sellanen oppitunti varmaan :D Ja mennään vissiin huomen aamulla hikeemaan tohon viereiselle vuorelle... Näköala Whitehaveniin.. nice.

Melanie tulee huomenna!!!! :) Se siis jäi Townsvilleen sen toisten kaukaisten sukulaisten luo, ja huomenna se tulee tänne että voidaan tehä se sailing together :) En tiiä kerroinko, mut ekana aamuna ku heräsin tääl Airlies, mietin ett "damn my book (Alex Garland : The Beach) is getting really good.. I've gotta give it (physically) to Melanie." Sit tajuun pari sekkaa myöhemmin, ett heeei, eihän Mel oo täällä :( So.. miss her! Glad she'll be joining us soon!

Näitä arskoja en riko/hukkaa/jätä rommeissa rannalle!

Tänään mennään porukal ulos. Noi kaks saksalaist Dennis ja David (puppy eyes!!!) on pyytäny meit yhille since we got here mut ollaan aina otettu raincheck.. Tänään siis Africa Mama'siin!

PS. HUOMATKAAAAAAAAAA MEITSI OSTI UUDEN OBEJKTIIVIN RIKKINÄISEN TILALLE <3 (Ei ollu aikaa oottaa, että se korjattaisiin). Huolsin mun babyy muutenki: putsautin sen ja ostin näyttösuojan (should've done that ages ago). Tuntuu hyvältä, että on taas kunnon kamera. Tollasel digipokkaril tee oikein mitään. Ostinki mun digikameran vaan keikkoi ja dokaamista varten. From now on: good quality pictures !

Setting Goals for Myself

I just set a goal for myself for the first time in my life. You know how people have those "where do you see yourself in five/ten years"? Well not me. Not ever. It just makes me fucking depressed when people try to live their life according to some plan they made. But this trip, no matter how short of a time we've been on the road for, has already unravelled me things about myself. Like my yearning to travel; to see the world and experience the diversities of culture. And the anxiety I get even thinking about having to go back to the rat race.

They say you're young only once, and it is true. You have your whole life to play the white-fence-a-husband-a-couple-of-kids-and-a-dog (except i'm allergic) -dream if thou whilst. You can always go back to school and pursue your career, but you can never go back to being young. I feel highly blessed for not even being 20 and to already be fullfilling one of my long term dreams.

That's why I set a goal for myself today, on the 24th of October 2010:
I, *name*, will go traveling again before i turn 23-years-old.

That gives me 3 years 2 months and 4 days.

Don't worry mom and dad though, I will come back home and apply to an uni.
...you can always take a year off you know...